>>17870179You learn to live with it.
My parents took me out of school in 5th grade to "homeschool" me, and did not teach me or my siblings shit past the first few months. Both were tweakers and we lived without power and water for months at a time in my youth. Between the frequent domestics my parents had I experienced nonstop abuse, physical and mental, I have scars running down half my body.
The only reason I am semi-competent is because I had an old laptop and a neighbor with unsecured wifi that allowed me to visit khan academy and view the outside world that I wasn't allowed to go visit.
I was convinced into not leaving at 16-25 because I had to "help the family" and "your sister needs help with the kids, family means something we put so much into you"
It wasn't until my mid 20's that I managed to start to (mostly) unfuck myself by cutting them out and try for a better future.
I'll never experience half of what the average person experienced especially in their youth which was stolen from me, I've come to accept that I was destined for the trailer park, and I'll probably just barely escape perpetual poverty; but I've seen people far worse off than I am and have learned to not compare myself endlessly to others and enjoy the smaller things in life. It's all you can do, man.
