>>10929190the problem isn't my lack of faith in Christ, or that "it works", if I believe in him. I firmly believe that if I acknowledge, verbally and mentally, that he was from a virgin birth, didn't inherit the sin of Adam and thus lived a sinless life, then took on all past/future sins upon his death, which he rose and ascended to heaven from three days later, that I will be saved. It's doubt in myself, that I deserve to be saved, if I'm going to be in the first place. It's not really death that I fear either, whether it's painless and instant or painful. I don't even fear oblivion, or the conventional image of hell, where you get tortured for eternity. I fear not doing whatever it is I need to do in this life, in order to be prepared for when I die, and not have to repeat it again. I REALLY do NOT want to be fucking born again.
