>>10449658>he used your emotional reaction for his benefitWell, that may be so. Unfortunately, I think he also saw it as a bit of a threat to his emotional well being, perhaps because I was so intensely upset at the very thought of it.
In the back of my mind, as I read and read it, I actually understood the optics of JUST THE THOUGHT you may have lost a child.
There was a night when my youngest was about 16 when he never came home. Thoughout the night, I called every hospital and precinct in Brooklyn and Staten Island, just to insure he was not known to them.
The fact was, he fell asleep on the train, probably passing through almost every borough of NYC repeatedly, until he finally woke up...and called me just after dawn.
I was not frantic emotionally, but psychologically speaking, I felt doomed.
Notice how the optics have changed between us since.
Personally, I feel more than a bit of a loss for losing what appeared to be a close ally, but, it is what it is. I can't help seeing the exquisite innards of his intellect, so it's a difficult task for me to walk away from what amounts to the most interesting mind I have ever encountered.
This is something so rare, it's the finest example of intelligence I have ever encountered.
However, I cannot deny seeing the optics of the purpose behind all that he does. His task at hand is the relaying of information, to wake up whoever might cross into his spectrum.
I've been following since at least last August, but BD's info was the one I felt the need to follow.
It may have been by late Autumn when I actually wrote a comparison of the two. I saw him as more a young buck, much more chan-pilled, and, emotionally in synch with how I, myself, react to life BIG happenings, while still maintaining an even keel when absolutely necessary.
BD, on the other hand, remains stoic throughout. There's little leeway for envisioning the absolute wtf-fun in the optics at hand.
con't....
