>>1186777I am lonely but not desperate. Do I wish I was straight? yes, I really do. I would love to have a marriage with kids and a proper family. But I accept that I will never have that and all I have is a series of brief hedonistic sexual encounters.
I don't believe in gay marriage, it is a farce and I've never seen a true one. I cannot just marry a woman like in the good old days where you married and had kids and kept silent about your homosexuality. That is unspeakably cruel.
I could kill myself but I'm not that depressed so I can't justify that.
So looks like I'm stuck where I am.
