>>12381812I want to ask you something since you seem pretty knowledgeable.
I know for a fact the God exists and Jesus exists but I have these questions(He shows me things that will happen to me in the future , be it a few days or a few months, and I know it's because he wants me to know that he is without time).
So God promises us rewards in Heaven, tenfold even. The question is why should I care about rewards in a place where everybody has the same baseline, in a place where social hierarchy doesn’t matter, where there are no animalistic impulses, and so on.
Everyone is equal there, everyone is healthy, everyone is loved, everyone is happy, everyone is basically drugged and constantly high on God’s love.
So I’m basically in the boat of being a future cripple, with multiple diseases that made my life a living hell alongside a fucked up childhood with no mom or dad and so on. Basically, I’m a huge fucking screwup that God wanted on this earth for whatever reason, maybe I need to be an example. And if you start saying that noo anon Satan is the one that does all these things, Ok you’re right, but SATAN can’t do one single thing without God’s approval ( see Job) so GOD allowed everything to happen to me.
I can’t enjoy anything that my peers can and lets for the sake of argument say I end up in heaven, once there I receive rewards in a place where they don’t matter and I’ll be alongside people who had their hedonistic adventures here as they should, given that I’m still relatively young and everyone seems to flaunt their adventures in my face and whatnot which I don’t envy, I envy my situation and how I’m not able to do anything without him intervening(whenever I tried, boom I get hit with a sickness, or something happens and so on), also how can I envy the fact that they’re enjoying their free-will ( or lack of it in my case because God chose me to be this examples for his lovely kids), so how can I cope with being an example?
