>>12664510I am a FUCKING loser - lazy fuck who can't get almost anything done right. And I have every reason to believe that I would be HEAVILY addicted to anything that can cause addiction, so its nothing short of a fuckig miracle that I dodged BOTH smoking and drinking as habits, despite kinda coming close to trying both of them.
As probably most of kids I had my first chance at smoking very young, probably like 6-7 y/o, I'm in the playground and some kid offers me a smoke. I politely decline and to this day I don't remember why. Maybe it was just the popular notion that smoking is bad for your health, and I wasn't very healthy so I decided to stay away?
Drinking was a different thing. I obviously drank in highschool with friends, but after graduation I haven't met with any of them often. I became very antisocial and haven't made friends in university, and only met with my former classmates like once a year. Then even more rare.
it went on so far, that when a friend called me up to go to the bar I realised that I haven't had ANY alchohol in 2 years and I haven't even thought of that. It's then that I decided that its not my thing and that I kinda was given that very rare chance, cause pretty much 100 out of 100 adults drink, some often some not, but all of them. And many of them become addicted, so I was gifted this rare chance to have 0% chance of getting addicted and I decided it would be stupid to miss it. HAving a dad who for 20 or 30 years suffered from alchoholism helped make that decision as well.
So yeah, I'm a fuck up, but among things calming me down when I try to sleep is the fact that at least I don't have to deal with that shit.
