I hate it
I can't describe with words what I am feeling
My sense of time is all distorted, I have conflicting thoughts inside my head, my eyes were darting everywhere on the screen but now it feels like I was forcing it to happen myself?
What is the point of such a charade, an empty performance which no one sees?
Am I making this thread just to show it to others??? Am I no better than an attention whore?
I hate it
I edited this thread carefully, so that there are no typos or misunderstandings. Is everything I do just a facade? What is controlling me?

I was happy with my role, why did I have to realise it was just that - a role