>>16301511this but i actually coped and resigned that i will inevitable die and the more i live the worse my conditions will get so it's actually calming that way, like i don't even fear death i long for it
i could get high on copium and storm hospitals 24/7 and be some medscuck but really all of that can't be helped and shouldn't be, people with genetically shitty health like me should just die and not be carried by modern medicine because what's the point, my life still will be miserable and non-desirable anyway so i'll preferably die young with my sanity at place at least
and i might be retarded but what is a paper clip, like how can you do something with your ear with some unbend piece of paper or something
