>>17343146I've been considering why I feel so clung to Loona, and I think I found my answer.
My entire life, I've had the 'We'll all float on' mentality. I've held this sort-of philosophy because my mother is always stressed about everything, and it was always stupid shit. I realized I didn't have to be stressed about anything, and one day just chilled out. Not a lot can bother me deep down, that is, until Loona.
You see, part of not being stressed is just wandering where the world takes you, and trying to squeeze your own goals in the process. In short, I've been orbiting life for so long, getting problem after problem tossed at me, that I handle, because I don't know or care where I'm going. The present effects the present, not the future.
Well here I stand in the midst of space on my island of lonliness and have nothing to orbit around. I'm tossed and thrown in every direction, farther or closer to where I desire, and I'm fine with it. I think I can't be fine with it anymore.
And so, for once, I orbited around Loona, on a fixed path that leads me closer and closer to her, slowly but surely, because for once I want just one thing to remain the same in my life. I've lived in chaos so long it's become the normal, and I don't want normal.
Some people just feel deeply. I think I'm one of them.
