>>17459835I don't know if I really have an outlet, I try not to repress my feelings simply because that makes it worse but I am just saying on a practical level somehow it's just easier to focus my feelings into anger because for example it's more empowering and it's not as depressive, you can in instead focus on what makes you sad, but then you might be left feelings sad or overly emotional and stormy all the time, but this doesn't really serve that much of a purpose, especially if you can't altogether change what is causing these emotions.
I feel like I have an unbearably feral and out of control beast or monster inside of me and it desperately wants to be released or it's freedom, but there's nothing I can do much in that regard, I am just caged in general.
Which just makes it all worse.
