>>18977139i don't even think about those things like "yeah they deserve it, it's so nice to see these people getting killed" i think about it more like "this is what happens in life and it happens daily and not just there but everywhere so yeah that's how it is", i don't feel anything when i watch those videos or see those pictures with dead people and destroyed stuff, to me it's as natural and fundamental as rocks and grass and hills in a countryside so when watching that i feel exactly like watching nature and i don't really feel special when i watch nature, to me it's just stuff, matter, just a bunch of things, i don't know how to describe it in detail but in my understanding all adult people feel like that or at least they should feel like that, maybe my mind just works differently but i felt like that since i can remember so i can't say that there's something wrong with me, it's something wrong with YOU potential reader if you really freak out seeing just a bunch of dead meat, like yeah it's gross but it's nothing more, it's just gross and unpleasant and that's it, it's not saint or holy or on the other spectrum demonic or possessed or anything it's just dead meat and we all will inevitably become dead meat so being afraid of death is like being afraid of life, life and death are indivisible
