>>6713426I struggle to accomplish much because I can't seem to get control over my negative emotions. Every time I try to learn a new skill or take up a new hobby, I can't help but compare myself to people who are better/more knowledgeable. Failing at something once or quitting also makes it harder when I try to make another attempt. When I think of taking up weight lifting or drawing or writing music I think of my past failed attempts and get discouraged. I don't make any friends because I was a social reject before and I don't expect that to change.
Instead I do basically nothing all day. I've managed to take up learning web dev again but only after countless months of thinking about how I tried that before failed to actually get any clients and then gradually forgot most of what I had taught myself.
Aside from those issues, I just don't have much motivation, period. Not even enough to watch an entire anime or play a video game. I don't have any hobbies anymore so I'm stuck using the shitpost boards.
Doesn't feel bad enough to die, but not great.
