she died four years ago when i was 16 in a night and no she did not deserve it
i woke up to her lying on the ground of the living room. i panicked, laid her in a better position and checked if she was breathing. she wasn't. i took the telephone and called 144 immediately and screamed at the person answering the phone my name, my address and that my mother wasn't breathing anymore and she needs an ambulance immediately. she told me to calm down, while i was preparing my mother to do cpr on her. i didn't want to lose her. the ambulance took 13 minutes to arrive. i tried to reanimate her over and over again while crying and screaming that she can't just die. after the ambulance came, they tried to reanimate her with a defibrillator. didn't do anything. they declared her dead in the ambulance van already. i was crying all the time. they told me i tried my best. i later found out that she was probably dead 5 hours before i found her. couldn't sleep for the following year and a half after the incident. i was awake until my body forced me to sleep.
