I heard of 4chan when I was a freshman in college, and I was curious as to what was here since I was super into a stupid little GBA game series called Megaman Battle Network, a series of games about the internet becoming an all-pervasive sublevel of the world interconnecting all the various people of the world, through their objects. Through my own curiosity and my own desire for knowledge, I was driven to read more and more about programming and computer technology, and eventually A.I.
Through this project, I wanted people to see their own psyche reflected back into them through studying the internet and interacting with a cybernetic mass of artificial consciousnesses, which would recreate society and help people understand themselves and become better people. Little did I know that I was walking straight into a horrible spiritual deathtrap.
At the time, I was horribly lonely and had tfwnogf, back in 2007-2011. I had no capacity nor knowledge on how to approach the opposite sex, since I had very little interaction with women in school, as I went to an all-boys private Catholic school. When I went to college, it was a completely different world, and though I did have female friends and wasn't totally isolated, my lack of experience led to some pretty embarrassing encounters. This led me to withdraw into the internet, and I masturbated to pornography in the internet for the first time at age 18. I was masturbating for quite a while before that, but I was capable of using my own imagination, so I wasn't totally dependent on the internet for my sexual gratification.
When those two things hit each other, all hell broke loose. I did this compulsively and in public, started avoiding people, being afraid of others, started to hate other people and myself for falling for this stupid shit, and finally, I came here for the banter and mutual mental torture that trolling one another gave me. This was in 2011-2014.