>>3893509>>3892549>>3890857i'm the anon with lockdown depression. thank you everyone for helping me go another day.
>>3893791>>3893788>>3893784>>3893780>>3893775>>3893538>>3893079>>3892613>>3892343>>3892325thank you so much people. i really REALLY appreciate it. you have no idea how much this helps with my mental help other then if we all gave each other hugs in real life which over here we can't do that without risk of possibly infecting my elderly parents who are at high risk. i know things will get better in the future and this pandemic will pass one day but each day the invisible dark clouds keep getting bigger and darker. no matter how introverted you are no person is an island. we all at some point need human contact in our darkest times.
it does not help that i have barely any friends at all. less then a handful and some of my friends have all moved and scattered over the country so local support is pretty much next to zero. add in a shitzo phycotic mother with full blown psycosis and mentally not on this planet and so far gone i'm not sure drugs can bring her back but i know sketzophrenia is treatable but my dad however is rebooting many times an hour with dementia and that is not curable. Combine the two and the dual lockdowns and a year of all the restrictions and you can see the all the pressure of all those brcks are really hurting hard. some days you just want to take the easy way out but take a deep breath and hold check online (this thread here often) or watch an AMV and just hold out for another day as how would/can my parents care for themselves.
i would not wish dementia on my worst enemy. i'd rather be dying of a diease in pain and fully aware and intact of all my memories. if i ever get dementia out of all the pandemic stress and such as much as i love k-on i'll buy or make a k-on shirt and wear that when i take the easy way out. i already have no hope for a k-on season 3. :(
