>>3814564Hamtastic.
I had a friend who felt similarly to how you're feeling. Not quite lost (lost implies you're trying to find a destination), but unsure of what even the path ought to be. The approach they took was to make a huge list (I'm talking over 100 items), with hobbies, professions, random things that made them feel warm, and then try those things out, week by week, until they found something that clicked.
I'm not sure if you're looking for advice, or just looking to share how you're feeling, but I'm glad you posted either way. Thanks for being here, anon. Merry Christmas!