>>3928091The ocd does things like if I try and watch anime my mind is constantly being filled with obsessive thoughts that makes me unable to watch and enjoy what I'm watching. With manga the same thing but I have this horrible obsession about whether my tablet (which I read manga on) brightness is 'correct' or 'looks right' and constantly keep flipping pages back and fourth. Like if I swipe left to turn the page I have a compulsion to swipe right to balance it out (this can make me flip pages back and forth over and over until I can persevere onto the next page) and I try not to do it but then the anxiety comes and it just sucks out the enjoyment. I also have obsession with things moving (eq TV) equating to never being able to watch anything on that TV again. So if there is any noise or I 'step weird' it gives me ocd thought and makes me want to check. Even though I make myself not check I've ended up developing a compulsive checking I in my mind where I visualise and analyse the noise and impact it could make on the ground and surrounding to see if it could move anything. The problem with this now is it has become involuntary and it just happens automatically and I can't stop it.
