>>3530921I'm no stranger to loss, but she would change me forever. I don't know that I could love again, but I hope so. No one wants to spend the rest of their days pining over someone they can never have back. Maybe it would be traumatic enough to change my view of the world, have me believe that there's an afterlife just because I can't accept that she no longer exists. I had always expected this to happen when I'm on my deathbed but this would leave me similarly irrational. If I could picture her on the other side watching me, I know she wouldn't want me to spend the rest of my days mourning her, she would want me to move on and be happy with the time I have left. She knows for a fact I'll be hers and no one else's in the next world, anyway.
>>3530985"Fuheeh? what are you recording me for?"
"Really, I'm not that interesting... you can stop"
but I think that her expression would betray that she actually loves the attention.
