>>3634401Like what are we supposed to do...
I just don’t understand how to be happy, I’m always expecting that something will click and make me happy. Like maybe this class will click and I’ll feel smart, maybe this relationship will work and I’ll feel loved, maybe this job and better pay will help me feel better. But it never does, cause I just fuck things up and even if I don’t it doesn’t feel good. I just feel gross and unhappy and I don’t really know why. But I still work hard constantly, and I have been like this for almost 7 years. I just want to wake up happy and go to sleep happy. I just don’t want to feel gross or worried or so much pure hatred for my self throughout the day.
I do everything, that everyone says to be happy and where am I left feeling like shit alone at the end of the day.
