>>3416286You'll probably stop caring, or if you don't stop caring you'll just become numb.
I realise this will sound clche but please try embracing youself and the fuckup that you hate so much and set a goal, a small one at first, like brushing your teeth every morning, to change something for the better then you might stop disliking yourself, that helped me alot.
Don't seek happiness, it will come to you when you're accomplishing something good for yourself or for someone else.
What brought me happiness was not caring about being happy but seeking that goal that thing i set for myself and working towards that.
Hapiness is so absract that it's stupid to chase it.
Stay strong.
