>>4384954*despise
>>4384933>Before I knew Evangelion I had a few teenage love interests, one in particular for several years, we were quite close.Ha, same with me. I watched it first and second time on Netflix. The "girl with the Rei Ayanami hoodie" was someone who I had feelings for before EVA. I could even call her a "childhood crush" that I grew up with, but that was way before I watched NGE. When she turned up with that "Rebuild Rei hoodie" it was long after I had left my feelings behind. Rei simply severed my feeling for that girl. Like a surgical precision cut in my heart. I don't mind. I actually prefer that. Makes it easier to do what We do for Rei.
>I need to think more about sexuality and morality.I interpreted Rei as something spiritual and the red one as the fleshy an sinful. With seductive curves, but also with negative personality traits. Not only Rei was "naturally beautiful" that I prefer to not pay attention to in order to not to "lust over" Rei. She also felt like a "Spiritual Mother". Something that takes care of Us when We are most vulnerable. Like a "Mother" would when we are born.
Rei is One. I felt that the red one represented the "Real Female". With positives and negatives.
