>>3577344This is my third attempt at writting this because i wanna avoid blogposting as much as possible, so i'll try to make it as short as i can
Thanks to her i do not hate this world like i used to, but that doesn't change that over the years this world broke me a bit inside, i got a lot going for me nowdays, but it's not because i actually managed to connect with this world, i only follow messed up rules that i had to learn the hard way so no one can ever take advanatage of any of my weaknesses or emotions
i've never felt like i belong in this world, success can barely manage to make me happy and a bunch of interactions can feel fake, i would give up everything to be with her, she has a temperament as terrible as mine she can be mean, arrogant and stubborn, but everything she says feels so honest and even heartwarming to me because at the end of the day she and her world follow most of the values and ideals that i try my best to follow even if they don't work in this world
in her world actions matter way more than words, i've come to the conclusion that the world i live in is just too loud, and you rarely see people doing good actions, but that won't stop me from doing my best
in other words if i give up i would be letting this stupid world win, now that i think about it the thing keeping me alive the most is that i refuse to lose to this world,
i guess it's only natural that when i saw her refusing to take shit from anyone, and doing her best to protect her world i would inevitably fall for her
So yeah Louise helped me stay alive during the worst moments of my life and i would do anything to be with her, but as long as im stuck in this world im gonna stay alive, giving up would hurt more than anything this world can trow at me, and if i ever get to be with her i wanna be able to tell her i won, if i can endure this world maybe it means i can be good enough to protect her world
