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I used to have a big group of friends to hang out with at warm summer days like this one. I used to have a huge crush on this one chick and she liked me back etc. etc.
I moved to a industry-city way up north around 2 years ago to operate in the mines, best job I've ever had so I got myself an apartment and settled down along with my cat. All was fine and well at first, friends came by and we played games when they weren't here.
My friends started to visit me less and less and on occasions when we drink we usually hang out on VrChat. It felt fine at first but I started to miss human interactions with people my same age.
In this city there are mostly people in their 40's and less girls than at my old programming school. Tried going out to drink a couple of times but there's always some fight breaking out. The last hook-up I had was with some single mom that just divorced her husband and was 42, almost old enough to be my mother.
I tried to end my life by overdosing but I chickened out and contacted someone who called 911 on me so I was sent to the hospital for a day.
I'm mostly sitting around now, keeping contact with around 2 people online, keeping a poker-face as I just don't have the energy to talk about this with someone. And I don't have the energy to quit my job and get a new one as it's not that easy to get an apartment in my old hometown.
All I look forward to on the days I'm off is to drink.
