>>3795459I know what it is unreasonable to expect someone else to save me. That isn't my goal or intention anyway. I just feel like sometimes people do need outside help to get out of a bad place.
Loneliness is one of those things where its really hard to save yourself because to not be alone you always need other people. Thing is, you obviously can't force other people to like you or fall in love with you. But if it would happen then it would probably be a huge boost to selfworth and it would help me to feel better and be more confident.
I haven't really felt love before and after a long time feeling unloved and being lonely I began withdrawing and stopped even giving it a chance. I am scared of even trying to be with someone because of lack of experience with love and the feeling that I am really unloveable.
My chances of finding someone now are probably worse than they have ever been before and even back when they were better nothing happened so how am I supposed to not give up hope?
I am trying my best to help myself through therapy and stuff but even if I could get rid of feelings of worthlessnes and self hatred I would just be back to square one and would probably fall back to negativity because I would stay alone again.
