>>3280825I hope it all works out for you somehow, anon. If not in this world, then the next. I know I've said this before (maybe even to you) so I wish I had something better to say. The best I can give you is that you aren't alone. I'm not sure that I'm supposed to be here either. I was born blue and limp, not breathing. I spent the first three days of my life in the intensive care unit using a respirator to breathe before my parents even got to touch me. If I hadn't been born in a hospital I would have died. Maybe I should have.
I hope it all works out for all of us.