>>4117283Thank you. I appreciate dearly what you have written and will remember it into the future. You are right about the extent love and devotion can go, and our difficulties in defining what that extent should be. Rei is indeed a "fundamental part of [my] life," and because of this, I have to consider how that should be expressed by me. Rei already makes me happy because of her nature and character, but her nature and character are not there simply to make me happy. I cannot forget what I have seen, but I can strive to overpower it through living a life that honours her. I suppose such a life requires regular (re)examination of my behaviour, without overthought about such behaviour. It will be a careful balance. This is the price of faith to the good, and I am willing to pay it in her memory. I will hold myself to this.
Based on what you wrote about not feeling the same way I did, it seems you are basally stronger than me, and I respect your spirit. I will not lay myself to the level so many others have fallen to or provide the means for that descent. I will not allow this to happen. I cannot prove this to you, myself, or anyone else, but if there is a time after this time, I hope to be able to say, "I honoured my word and, in doing so, her."
