I'll try to reread KnS one more time. Maybe it will clear my mind and let me feel the love for Toko that used to burn inside me so brightly again.
>>4188249I've seen Saya while tripping again. Curiously I seen her both forms. I wish I knew why does this happen so often. Maybe because I consider myself to be as tainted as a shoggoth? Or because the shapeless monsters and horrors that I see on psychs feel like they're my friends? I feel no fear for them.
Well, I actually I did got scared by one once. When I accidentally gave myself a serotonin syndrome last year I've seen a shapeless, featureless monster that scared me very deeply. I took a lot of benzos to fight the serotonin syndrome and to save myself, but when I lied down on the bed I almost blacked out, and that thing woke me up and made me move outside so I could cool my overheating body down.
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