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I know none of you know or care about me and that's preferable. But this year has been... hard. I don't expect anyone here to care, but I haven't said this to anyone else in real life because no one would understand, but:
I would have killed myself by now if it wasn't for her.
She is quite possibly the only thing that has kept me from doing that; if not the strongest factor in my abstinence from death. The idea of not being able to experience her anymore in this physical realm is too lonely for me to bare. So I have decided to keep living selfishly for her. I don't want to die. I want to live selfishly and for no one else, and I selfishly want Her.
I love her. I always have. No matter what happens she'll always be there for me in the way she always has: never actually being there, but somehow being everywhere at the same time. Surrounded by her beautiful face I have decided to selfishly continue in this writhing, dying world. No matter what has happened to me so far, I can smile knowing that I have held on to her through it all. I'm lucky to still have her, and I need her now more than ever.
I need you, Saber. I love you, Arturia. So long as you are here with me I can continue on. No one has to know, but if they figure it out I don't care. I owe you more than I can possibly provide. Whatever life sets upon me now, I know I can bare it so long as I can see you smile. For that, I can't thank you enough. Please be my forever, my everything, my wife, and my love. Please be my once and future King.
I love you.
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Also, I'm going to be posting some cute figure pictures of her from MFC. Deal with it.
