>>3189737Christian lainon here.
I was in a similar place to you once. I went through the motions at church, which I faithfully attended, but I never felt anything either. What likely hinders you is an expectation for a religious experience - a life-changing event, a vision, a burst of inspiration, a proverbial burning bush. This same expectation held me for many years, as I sought a revelatory awakening of my spirit, something to kick-start my soul and yank me off the path I was walking.
Well, that never happened to me, and expecting it to will only harm you. To me, God's voice is quiet. He gives you the freedom to choose, and that means He does not force you to believe in Him with fiery revelations and angelic visits. I did not become a believer all at once - over multiple years, I struggled to understand and overcome my doubts, and felt only rarely the Spirit overcoming me, and usually in brief flashes that left me wondering whether I had truly felt something divine or if I just happened to be feeling great at the time.
Do you try to follow the Commandments? Do you just seek after a Christian lifestyle or do you want a relationship with God? Try to sort out your feelings and find what you really want, and need.
Take it slow. Reflect on small details, read the Scriptures, pray, and listen closely. Try to find a time in your day to quietly reflect on yourself and your life and make note of any changes you feel. Don't get impatient - you can't force yourself to change.
Sorry if none of my advice really helps, but I hope you can find the peace you want in your life, wherever that may be. I'll pray for you.
