>>4382423I've been there too m8, living day to day with a gaping hole where "you" should be, wanting nothing more but to fall into the bliss of sleep.
It gets better. If it weren't for Asuka, I wouldn't have dug myself out of it, and since then she's always been a source of strength.
This is gonna sound cheesy, but trust in your love for this girl and strive to be all that you can be, both for your own good and as tribute to Asuka.