Posting this separately since the character limit is a pain.
>>3844064Perhaps answering that calling may give you more of a sense of purpose. Take good care of yourself - for many of us, winter isn't the greatest period in terms of mental and emotional health.
And you might be right about therapy, but have you opened up to a therapist about how you feel regardless? Being honest and helping them understand why you feel they might not be able to help you without watching PMMM can be useful for you, and given that PMMM's as psychologically masterful as it is philosophical, who knows - you might just find someone who has watched it. Hell, I still want to change careers and become a therapist one day, and I've most certainly watched PMMM.
Sadly there are also a lot of not-so-great therapists. I've had my run-ins with them too. It's still worth pursuing the right one for you though, at least in my opinion. Until then, you can count on us if need be - as you can see, there are more than a few of us who'd be interested in hearing you out.
