>>1949172I didn't even like redheads before watching Eva. In fact, I hated them, but Asuka was something else.
You all know how people get their mind blown after watching Eva, don't you? Well, I didn't, though it definitely was great. But Asuka, Asuka definitely blew my mind. In fact, that was the first time I've actually felt genuine love. Not just some teenage affection (I was, what, 15, when I watched it) but I knew it, that was love. Not just some "oh hey, she's sexy" thing like you feel with Lara Croft or something but actual love.
And here comes the main problem: she's not real, and loving a fictional character, a picture, an image seems so god damn stupid. Yet I still love her.
In fact, I love her so much that she's my only weakness. Through all my life and years on 4chan I learned to never take anything close to heart or be offended at something but I can't do that with her. It physically hurts me when someone so much as even insults her, and I can't do anything about it.
But still, she's pretty much the only thing actually making me feel better these days when pretty much everything else seems broken and pointless, and I'm grateful for that.
Thanks for letting me vent all this, I guess.
