>>3795405People have been lying to their families about their partners since time immemorial. Have you thought about trying that, or putting yourself out there to see if there's a lady in the same boat you are (which is entirely possible, given the attrition rate of most modern churches)?
>I've been refusing to confront this issue my entire life since like age 12 and that's what keeps me from talking with anyone seriously about anything.There aren't do overs in the real world like in the Madokaverse. Each day you go without breaking that loop is a day lost. You've got three years of twenties left, anon. How do you want to spend them?