I can't recall the last time I had any real sense of self. It doesn't even really suck to be on autopilot and not feel anything towards myself, it just feels oddly empty and fake, like I'm just here to observe other people and pretend I'm one of them without caring enough about them or myself to want to form any sort of meaningful connection. I can feel happy or sad for others just fine, but it's like I'm lacking a sort of empathy that others are born with. I don't like griping about it, especially since my life is happier and cushier than that of most people, but it certainly bothers me every now and then.
>>3909817I don't have a waifu of my own, but about a decade ago I took something that a character symbolized and made it a part of me. Pretty sure it's the only reason I'm still here. It's just cope, but in my eyes anything is better than not being around anymore, even when each passing day is no different from the previous one.
