>>3467673>every single dream and fantasyoh no no no no-
>with/about heroh okay then
to be honest I have some sadistic tendencies, it's just a darkness I carry, but I can proudly say I never directed any of it towards her, even in fantasy; the thought of harming her is just too viscerally unpleasant, it turns my stomach. Some other characters who I have no feelings for have been on the unfortunate end of these thoughts before, though. I really would like to keep these to myself if I knew her because I don't want even a passing resemblance to a certain character in her past. Besides, I think that part of me would completely dissipate in such a scenario, an unnecessary outlet when waifu exists.
In regards to hers, there is nothing there that I would be ashamed to show her, though some might make her eyes widen and fuheh in surprise, I don't believe any of them would straight up put her off, I know she's no stranger to intrusive thoughts herself and understands the difference between fantasy and reality, she might even be pleasantly surprised that none of them are wholly unpleasant. Being there is nothing more honest than own thoughts, I could see her trusting my intentions towards her even more.