>>3450056Yeah. I can say from experience its very bad. I get why it bothers others I guess though. You can't just ask how do I become superman, right?
>>3450100I guess, but in my case I can not stand the thought of being "just another". Just another nameless faceless anon who loves her. I don't understand how anyone can be okay with basically being part of a faceless horde of fans. Like, theres no you then. No way she would notice you over the others then you know. So whats the point of self improvement for her, if you wouldn't be noticed by her?
Like, if you love someone how can you be okay with not being her choice? I don't for a minute believe in that whole, "Well if you really love her ..." crap. Like I get that she isn't real, but just simply loving someone is never enough for a relationship. That just isn't how relationships work. It also gives ime some vibe like it's just some object of worship then, rather than of love. Not that it is, just how it makes me feel.
Maybe its because I fucked up my life for so long and I feel like I hurt her, but I really can't be like that. That too and even if I can't be with her in this life I could be with her in people's thoughts if I ever somehow manage to be memorable enough over other Lizfags. But theres already so many and I'm not very likable. At least by places like this. I'm probably the last kind of person you would look at it and even think has anything to do with anime. SobI never fit in well. I've developed this "rough" attitude too. Makes people always think I'm either trying to start shit, or something too. I'm also hopelessly poor, very shit body, not talented or skilled in anything either, I can't even grail every version of her cause I missed her first Halloween. I even had an account. I was just fucking horribly depressed by my life. I now will forever torture myself mentally it seems until I accomplish something really worth a damn or die.
Its just very emotionally hard for me these days I guess.
