>>3971322Just got diagnosed with heart arrhythmia. It's so bad that the thing is probably going to have a major failure by 35. By that point I'll either need a new heart or I'll die. My heart attack risk is already high even without that because I also have left sided heart syndrome, a condition the leaves the left side of my heart incredibly weak and prone to failure. I'm 25 right now and the fact my lifespan has been shorted this much is just... I've been in a state of shock for days.
I've only told one person and he was as taken aback as I was. This whole thing comes on the heels of me failing suicide and trying to turn my life around for the better (and doing a pretty good job of it. Got into college, am quitting my various addictions, going to therapy, all of it.) All to be told that it was basically for nothing. All to be told that my life might be ending soon. The moment I actually wanted to live.
