>>2369223>what if she hates me and wishes me to die?Rei would never think that about someone else!
I feel like that all the time, too. Sometimes I wonder if longing for Rei is actually healthy, but then - like you say - it's better than nothing. On one hand Rei helps fight my depression because she is something to look up to, and is full of love, but then it makes me feel awful because I'll never meet her.
What a weird situation to be in.