>>3358078I just realized I've always kind of assumed my dad would die first, leaving me with my mom. I don't have any rationalization for that, since my mom eats healthier and works out more than my dad, despite them both being in their late 60's.
I sat with them at lunch today, and thoughts about getting older/frailer have been pressing into me for nearly a year. I noticed so many things I'd never forced myself to look at - my mom's winkled hands, the random sore or mark that older people tend to get due to their skin taking longer to heal, lines and indentations that didn't used to exist. I always think of my parents like I did when I was a teenager - older, but still healthy. Happy. I remember wrestling with my dad or having water balloon fights with my mom. Things that won't happen anymore. Can't happen anymore. You just always assume they're going to be around.
I really don't know what I'm going to do when my parents die, /c/.
