>>3796118Sorry to hear. Have you had the chance to speak to someone about your ongoing issues? Friends, family (whichever members you get on with, at least), hell even we're here if need be (effulgentSunset 0536 is my discord, in case you feel the need to hear from a more disconnected third party).
Writing songs may not give you that feeling of relaxation that you need, but do you have any other hobby or interest to fall back on? Any sort of positive retreat that makes you feel at ease and gives you an escape from your woes is bound to help.
>my family has been really possessive of meI know that feeling all too well. I've had the misfortune of living in an environment (family, classmates, peers, even coworkers and managers at my previous job) where I was ruthlessly punished for my mistakes or shortcomings, yet also coddled so I wouldn't do anything wrong at all in the first place. It's left me weirdly disconnected from reality and without much in the way of common sense. Maybe one day that'll change.
The holidays are coming soon, but are you at least able to spend some time away from them until then? It really sounds like you could use a bit more freedom and especially some peace and quiet in your life, so obtaining that for yourself is definitely a good goal to strive for in the coming year.
>I usually try to end posts like these happily but I just don't have the energy to do that tonight. I hope you're all doing better.Don't ever feel pressured to be super positive. Yeah, this is 4chan, but if nothing else we're at least supportive. Be honest with yourself and don't bottle up your feelings just out of fear of being judged negatively for being too negative.
