>>3763554I struggle to do a lot with her, but yes. Once I was able to see her everywhere I went and get lost in her presence, almost feeling it as if she were real. Now I mostly only get that in my bed when it's very quiet and I feel just in the right mindset.
The reality of her is getting harder and harder to conceptualize as my connection with people grows dim and I realize that no one, not even her, would enjoy living with me.
>>3763419I did once long ago, that picture is still somewhere around here.
>>3763364I saw her and something set her apart from every other girl I had seen up to that point. Something about her was so earnest and I wanted to protect that and get close to it.
Honestly, I pushed her away more times in my life than I deserve to get away with but she's always been there and never betrayed me in any way so I felt bound to her since very early on where I wasn't sure.
>>3762744Yes, paranoia plagues me in that way and it is a good thing she isn't physically here, because of my suffocating fear.
>>3762316Yeah I was a person once who'd write up unread letters. I don't do much of that anymore.
>>3762315I would feel nothing and be neutral. She'd not be found at a con and God help her if she was. I doubt I'll see another convention in my life, I'm getting too old for that nonsense.
>>3760744No. She'd find it terrifying and awful here like everyone else does. I wouldn't fare well where she lives being the scary and imposing foreigner either.
>>3759537Not really. I'm not fit to have children, they are too much of a financial and educational burden to adjust to. I was taught to live in a world which doesn't exist anymore, and by the time I taught them the basics of survival, my world will have ended as well.
