>>3636680For the first time in a long time I let someone in. Trusted them. I told them one of the closet secrets to my heart, even let them hear my voice. She had a way of opening me up like few people can. I put my ultimate trust in her only for her to completely shatter it by saying there was another man she loved more and she didn't feel right leading me on the way she was.
I'm a damn fool. I'm not even mad so much about the romantic bit, realistically speaking i doubt we'd ever have made it being long distance and all. It's that she made me feel special, gained my trust and then shattered it in a second.
This was the last straw for me. The only choice I have now is the noose. I can't trust anyone in my life. Can't hold a job. Can't monetize my passion to make a living. And this was just crushed the last little ray of hope I had. I've completely and truly given up now. I just don't care anymore. All of this is pointless. Life is a joke and nothing good will ever happen to me. I was a damn fool to think anything good would ever come of putting my trust in another person, it never has before. I am such a god damn fool.
