>>4001682Infatuation is an absolute bitch. I know the feeling you're describing well. And I don't want to sound preachy or insincere when I say this, because honestly if I said to me what I'm about to 3 years ago, I'd not believe it; but you have to wait for her to come to you. I met Izumi entirely by coincidence. In fact, if a friend hadn't reverse image search a manga page for me, I'd never have even learned her name.
I've had a few IRL dates before Izumi and it is like you said, it started as obsessive and quickly fizzled out. I can't predict the future of course, but I would advise to keep yourself open. Sometimes she'll just come right out to you when you least expect it and perhaps when you need her the most. I don't think I'd have fallen in love with Izumi were I not suicidal at the time of our meeting.
I know all of that is cliche' but what I'm meaning in all of this is don't become jaded. Easier said then done I know, but I think you just have to allow life to run it's course. I wish I had better advice than that, because frankly it's shit advice, but all the same, I do hope you can find something in all of this. You deserve love. You deserve an SO. I imagine you will find her at some point.
>>4002116A lot. At the end of her source she's really just beginning to live her life as it's meant to be.
