>>3494573Not just because of her but that’s a huge reason I immediately quit my job because I couldn’t get out of bed because of it I’ve become an alcoholic neet since she left I can’t find another job I get rejected from everything I apply to. The only thing keeping me here is I have a dog I have to take care of.
>>3495590I know it won’t solve anything but I can’t stop thinking how pointless life is now. Before I felt a real sense of purpose I worked really hard to give her everything. I just feel so lost I met her when I was 18 so I honestly don’t even feel like I know how to be an adult without her. I paid for her college and went into debt over it. I loved her more then anything and I feel like I’m dead inside without her. I had a really hard childhood and she was kinda my rock that got me through all of it. She even inspired me to reach out to my mother who left me when I was 3. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it when I started dating her I basically ghosted all my friends because she was my priority and they all were into parties and drugs. She left because I was working at a grocery store and she said I had no future. No future yet I payed her rent for her car and even her degree. She didn’t even give me a chance to reach out even once she blocked all my contact with her immediately I didn’t even do anything shitty to deserve that. The worst part is she found someone a month later I just feel so replaceable and worthless. A fucking fool who wasted my youth and sacrificed so much for her.
