>>2195557I'm nowhere near 30 but it's still too late. I'm fucked up in the head and have an extremely dysfunctional relationship with the rest of humanity. I don't actually hate people or want to hurt them but I keep doing weird shit when trying to interact with people, like I am a wild animal who has been let out of its cage and is now causing mayhem in the streets. At first it's obvious that I have social issues of some sort but people don't get how bad it is until it gets progressively worse as time goes on. I keep doing stupid shit just to sabotage myself, like making up lies about everything for no reason, and just like Satou I'm aware how fucking stupid and counter-productive it is of but I can't stop myself. For some reason making people see what an utterly disgusting human being I am is strangely enjoyable. It's the only pleasure I take in human contact at all anymore.