>>3833585Because I won't be able to look at her if I don't keep at it. I'm happy just by being able to experience her that way, sort of like the stars in the night sky, it's not like we're ever going to visit any of them anything soon, but glaring at them gives a hopeful feeling. Besides she's a cheerful person, she wouldn't like it if I were to end it, she'd rather have me stay hopeful, who knows maybe a miracle will happen and I'd like to be helpful to the ones that are already close and care about me as she was to her own friends. I'm doing it for her.
