>>3495934I wouldn’t say I put pussy on a pedestal in general but I definitely put her on one. She was my whole world. Maybe that’s where I fucked up the most depending on that I really wanted to marry her tho I thought it was going to be forever I was stupid for that. When I asked her to marry me she just said no and I had no future at my job and left the next day. It was out of character for her and it really broke me. I wanna try getting back into mma that’s something I loved to do before i met her just need to force myself I guess. And I feel terrible for my dog I barely play with her and just go through the motions of taking care of her. Its hard cause I got her as a puppy for my ex and whenever I look at the dog it just reminds me of her. Idk everyday just seems worse then the day before idk how people just move on.
