>>3932700I've reflected on this for a few hours while I was out. I'll keep it brief since this isn't my personal blog but I need to get it out. I overthink things a lot, but I guess that I ultimately don't know how exactly I feel about Rei or why I do.
I guess I love several different iterations of Rei, for different reasons: original NGE Rei for her mysteriousness, how I empathize with the way she lives, her loneliness, her existential wondering about why she is alive, and her introversion; EoE Rei for my millenarian sympathies (to such an extent that I wouldn't mind Instrumentality at all); Rebuild Rei is hard because I don't know how her story is resolved, but it's still Rei and there are good moments; Reis similar to EP26AU Rei, including those in SIRP (halfway read) and probably GoS (haven't read) or fan works mainly for their cuteness, even if they aren't really the same Rei; and just overall Rei as depicted in fan art because there is just some inexplicable beauty that I see in her. More than moe too. A bit of a mixture of things. And my real life is so full of despair, uncertainty, and loneliness right now that I guess she helps fill a void there too.
So suffice it to say that it isn't even clear to me why I love Rei so much. I just do. All's right with the world?
