>>3204895It's not too hard to devote your life and be driven by fiction, or want to be with her in a World of Fiction people do it all the time. The answer is that even if she is fiction, she's still Your Reality. She's influenced and driven you in tons of ways, and in that sense she's more real than most "real" people. A Real Fiction, if you will.
It's hard to be without her, but even if she is not real, your feelings for her are, and never forget that!