>>3486094I've been a total loser my entire life really. In school I had few friends, I was more of a third wheel than anything. Nobody really cared about me, I think I was just the person they felt sorry for but didn't have it in their hearts to actually tell me to go away. I haven't spoken to any of them in a long time.
Dealt with bullying throughout most of school, but nobody stepped in, sometimes I got mocked by the people I turned for help (teachers, parents, etc). I guess that taught me that I shouldn't ask for help.
I've had anxiety and depression for at least as long as my teenage years. I have no self-confidence (which often made me just not hand in school assignments out of embarrassment) and this brought down my school grades.
I now have work a shit job with a bunch of normies who often grill me on why I have no friends and all that. Luckily the nature of the job means I don't really need to interact with them too much.
I don't really have any life goals or direction, I kinda just go through the days without really being there mentally. I don't enjoy life but I'm not particularly suicidal anymore either. I'm just very unhappy.
So I'm just stuck between wanting to have a happier life but with my mentality pulling me towards just lying in my room all day and being isolated.
